now I really hate my self that I can't hear what my labmates said in chinese.
hey Bo Hung, why did u never call my name? why did you guys, only talk to me via MSN when we're at the same place? I know some people said you are too shy so speak english. but,, huaaaaaaaaaaa...... I'm so sad of this..
I never knew what they laughing about. I never knew what they share about.
so sad inside.
I become someone else when I'm in MY OWN LAB. not someone who cheer up situation, not someone who make a lot of jokes.
even quite hard to smile here T.T
I can't feel those comfortness that make me feel like I am a part of them.I can't feel that they are my new family..
This time I hate my my self as much as I can. I want to be a real part of this lab.
